“Proves you have one” right? Well, I’m 39 years old, I know that I have a head, thank you very much!
I don’t remember mentionning it in the Cove, but for the last 15 years or so (I’m not actually keeping track, it is not something I like to celebrate) I suffered, and still suffer from chronic headache.
The level of pain pretty much varies from “Am I having a headache-free day? Oh! No… It is still there…” to “Would you please swing that baseball bat in my face to ease the pain?”.
It sucks. Not the worst thing in the world, I know people who deal with a lot worst, but still, it sucks.
It all started a little bit before I was diagnosed with severe depression. Thinking about it, I think I made a doublé back then. Depression and burn-out. I picture it as if I had let the stress in my life build up so much, that I broke my stress-gauge. After that, I ended up having only two possible levels of stress. Stressed (no matter the level) and not stressed.
It is not as bad as it used to be, though. Thank God. The first year or two, I experienced migraines that made it impossible for me to even think about getting out of bed. Those of you who had/have migraines will know what I am talking about. I don’t miss these moments when light, sounds and other stimulus provoked almost unbearable pain.
I went to the doctor. They tested me in every way possible. I think that the next step was to crack my skull open and try to poke it with little sticks asking “does this hurt?” no. “does this hurt?” no… But we didn’t get there.
After much investigation, and leaving me to think I might have a brain tumor or a latent for of epilepsy for a while, I was told I suffered stress cephalea. Which is a fancy name for “sorry, we tried our best, but we don’t know what’s wrong with you!”
I was told changing my eating habits might help, but the thing is, I don’t eat most of the things on the list of headache-inducing things I might ingest. Except wine. And since the pain is there all the time, I am not leaving my dear Pinot Noir. Thanks, but no thanks.
Anyway… It’s been almost an hour since I got up now. The painkilllers are doing their job, and the headache is fading little by little. I’ll soon be good to go, for another day.
If anyone suffers chronic headache, and has found a way to make it more bearable… Please leave your tricks in the comment box below.