This is a tough one…. (yes, I do realize that this is only Day 2 of this challenge)
Not because I don’t have struggles. I do have my fair share of them. It is the sharing part that I have some trouble with. I’ve always tried to keep the negative in, for as long as I can remember. I had the best proof last weekend, when having an interesting conversation with my bestfriend, I found out that she had never been aware of the bullying I suffered in primary school.
We were in the same classroom and shared the same playground, yet she never noticed that I got mocked and teased everyday. She was one of the cool kids, and I wasn’t. Which probably explained why she didn’t recall her back then friends being so cruel to me. Or maybe it was just that I was already really good at hiding the ugly sides of Life….
I don’t see the point in sharing what really saddens or upsets me. Sharing the negative would only make others sad or upset themselves. Or even worse, it would look like a request for pity.
And the last thing I need is pity.
I’ve tried to really open up a couple of times in my life, with some people who I thought could handle my darker troubled side. I even warned them that it could be too much to take. And apparently, it was…
So, yes… I guess I struggle with trusting people with my darker feelings.
But then again, is it really that bad? Who would want to looked past the limit of what I’m willing to share, and what’s not meant to be seen, unless they’d have an unhealthy curiosity?
What about you? What’s one thing you struggle with?
To read Marquessa’s thought about today’s subject, click here.