I never understood.
I doubt it was due to a lack of cleverness on my behalf. I had been naive, for sure, but not as much as people would have thought.
Never had I wanted this. And come to think of it, that’s probably what attracted you like a moth to a flame… The challenge. You just wanted what you couldn’t have, and woudn’t take no for an answer.
I wasn’t playing hard to get. I just wasn’t there for the taking. But it made no difference to you, you just needed to see that smitten look in my eyes, someday. You worked hard, I’ll give you that, to find all the fine cracks in my armor. And you leaked yourself, drop by drop, under my shield. Under my skin.
From an unlikely encounter, you became a friend. And then, what? Your game stepped up a level… With force efforts, and I am guessing much fun too, you lured me into loving you. And made me believe it was both ways.
But it never was… Was it?
You only had one goal. To win.
And when I finally opened up, offering all my vulnerability, the look in your eyes changed, suddenly.
You picked up your coat, and never looked back.
And here I am… I could wish to never hear from you again. But even if you were acting up, I still believe I’ve seen the good side of you.
And I am counting on the idea that you’ll stay alive. So we can meet again someday, and you’ll prove me right.
#NovemberNotes2019 – Counting by Autre Ne Veut